Do Looks Matter?

Cute is when a person’s personality shines through their looks. Like in the way they walk, every time you see them you just want to run up and hug them.

Natalie Portman

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Do Looks Really Matter?

As you can tell from the featured image, that is me in my previous work clothes trying to act all cute. Instead, that day I didn’t really have a good day at work and I was trying my hardest to get a smile and just feel sexy.

I took a selfie and just thought to myself “that is just an ugly picture, I can’t take cute pictures”. But then I thought, why should I subject myself to an ever-growing issue when people have image issues themselves. When I was 10, I was a big kid, I gained weight and what not. By the time I was 18, I was a size 29 waist and had the perfect body, you know, the one that gay men would love to touch.

My Image Issue

In 2006, I was robbed at gunpoint at a gas station I worked at. During which time, that messed me up big time, I had psychological issues along with depression and suicidal thoughts. I had gained a lot of weight, I went from a 29 waist to a 35, my weight went from 165 to 235, that’s 70 pounds added to my body along with being hooked on Benadryl.

I looked at myself one day and was like “you are ugly” only because when I did the online dating when guys started to say “you are not my type” or “your not hot (sexy) enough”, in which really hurt me because it felt like I was being judged based on my looks and not who I am.

Our Society

It saddens me when I think about the word “sexy” or looks it up, it brings up people with muscles, flat stomachs and worst yet, someone who is so thin that they believe what they look like is sexier than hell.

There is a limit to one’s views on themselves, but I believe what really matters is what is inside of us. Take, for instance, Porn Stars (Gay and Straight), all have great bodies, right? All have that look, right? Like “OMG, I wanna bang them so bad” but for what?

I believe media and social media are to blame because we use this DAILY, and this can cause a lot of us to have personal image issues with ourselves.



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